lostinthecoulds

meowwwww.
making a new AIM sn, and another new live journal that im probably only letting emily seee
and am only gonna use to read my twilight updates.

byebyee.

drama drama and more drama!
totally dude.

bahahaha

I found when i re read this that im really satisfied with everything i said
and i'm really dead set for once that i have no feeling left for this idiot anymore.
i've said it 10 times yes
but this time the feeling is gone
before it still felt like i'd talk to him again and i knew i would
but this time
i really just dont feel any desire to ever waste my time again

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i havent done shit to you you fucking idiot
however, no i have lost any ounce of fucking respect i've had for you

I'm still waiting to know why you think its acceptable to just blow me off for an entrie day in something such as a 'serious reationship'
though i've come to realize how you can't take anything fucking serious in your life when it comes to anything important or anything you supposedly care about

sort out your fucking priorities because when your in a fucking relationship no matter who with

you signifigant other comes first.
but with you its not like that
you fucking care about every other little thing so much more
fuck youd rather go get high then like go out to eat with me or something because thats how fucking pathetic you are and thats how badly you feel you need to do alllll you can to make your friends like you more.
i never said you cheated on me did i you stupid mother fucker

i said you went a whole day ignoring me, and then went to a fucking party
WITHOUT EVEN INFORMING ME THAT I WASNT GOING TO BE DOING ANYTHING WITH YOU THAT NIGHT

WITHOUT EVEN FUCKING CALLING ME AT ALL DURING THE DAY JUST TO FUCKING SAY HEY
YOUR BASICALLY MY GIRLFRIEND
SO I SHOULD BE FUCKING CALLING YOU
ESPEICALLY SINCE I SAID I WOULD THE DAY BEFORE.
fucking stupid peice of shit
you cant do anything right
how simple is it to call someone when you say you will huh
whats the difference between you drunk and sober?
you obviously cant pick up a phone either way to call someone you supposedly love and care about oh so much

i thought you fucking stopped being like this
wtf is wrong with you
after seeing this
i dont want anything to do with you anymore
this is turning out just like fucking february
where you were lying up a storm and i couldn't trust one fucking word you said

hiding things like oh i've had this bag of weed for a week

fuck you matt
you're not worth my spitt
go fetch krystal now, because im not going to let you turn me into her anymore, im starting to realize your the reason she is the way she is.

i'm starting to realize you guys really were good for eachother i should have never messed that up.


I hope you get what you deserve hard core.

random bands that remind me of random people
and let me warn you some of these are completley random and
i dont know why listening to certain bands makes me think of certain people

the arcade fire - cassidy

atreyu - tj

the beatles- tom yun

blink 182 - liz white, greg case

The blood brothers- brittish josh

bloodhound gang - liz white

boxcar racer - joe

brand new - emily

CKY - greg case

the cure - leahanna

deftones - rich

devil wears prada - jake

from first to last - brittish josh

good charlotte - shelby

Jimmy eat world - emily

jacks mannequin - emily

joy division - karen

marilyn manson - justin (obviously) & emily

The Matches - amanda & ryan

Melee - cassidy

Michael jackson - alicia hulting

Mindless self indulgence - justin, and mat remilard

The misfits- leahanna, karen,captain

Modest Mouse - Ryan toole

Muse - fucking john lamanna and captain

Panic at the disco - audrey

paula abdul and pat benetar - amanda (who else)

a perfect circle - emily

the postal service - brittish josh

protest the hero - john, aaron, mike, and ryan.

queen - tj

radiohead - ken

saosin - arruda

say anything - john connor

the scene aesthetic - amanda

secondhand serenade - marissa casinelli

silverchair - emily

smashing pumpkins - nick lowell

the spill canvas - nic fontaine

sugarcult - amy choreng

sum 41 - emily

sweeny todd soundtrack - amanda

the vines - laura wilson

waking the cadaver - leahanna


theres others
but i dont liek the people they remind me of

have to pee

jshd783yfuhwMEOW:  hello, i don't want to annoy you, but can i ask you something real quick?
arealboy: Ya
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: do you write all the lyrics?
arealboy: 95% of them
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: well then you're like..a lyrical genuis haha. I was just always curious
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: thank you :-)
arealboy: Haha thanks :-)

you're an idiot
maybe the most misunderstanding person on this planet

it has nothing to do with who knew who first

mehmeh i knew jay before you

BUT HES YOUR EX BOYFRIEND

so it would be wrong for me to hang out with

you get it yet?

SHANE TOLD
SHANE TOLD
SHANE TOLD
SHANE TOLD
so i told emily to IM him and she diddd!!
and he talked
and thanks to her he talked to me!!!!
ILOVEHERILOVEHERILOVEHERRRR

i got rid of his screen name for my own posessive purposes.

XBathroomXLoverX: sarealboy: Hi who's this?
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: OMGGGG
XBathroomXLoverX: Hours & hours later.
XBathroomXLoverX: XDDDD
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: what did you say?
XBathroomXLoverX: Um, hi. I'm Emily, & my friend digs your band really hard but is a bitch ass pussy & was worried you'd block her if she IMed you, so I did it for her. .. Hi, how's your night? ;P

jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lmao.
XBathroomXLoverX is away at 10:37:40 PM.
XBathroomXLoverX:   isarealboy: Word

Auto response from XBathroomXLoverX: Getting dressed. >:"D

sarealboy: Howd you get my aim
sarealboy: Where you from?
XBathroomXLoverX: I don't know how she got it, actually. & I'm from Rhode Island. :P
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: omggg


XBathroomXLoverX: Go IM your Shane man.
XBathroomXLoverX: He's talking to me fine.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: thank you emily =]
XBathroomXLoverX: he asked for my myspace.
XBathroomXLoverX: is he cute?
XBathroomXLoverX: I'll hit on tha rockstaaah?
XBathroomXLoverX: XD
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lol hes liek 27
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but he is gorgeous
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: to me anywayyys.
XBathroomXLoverX: take me, big boy!
XBathroomXLoverX: hahaha.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lmaooo
XBathroomXLoverX: oh, that's probably ugly for me then.
XBathroomXLoverX: Hm.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: go look anyway
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: im  almost sure you;ve seen him plenty
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: silverstein has only been my favorite band forever
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: besides green day
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: if it was billie joes sn
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i woldsnt even care about eing shy
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lol

XBathroomXLoverX: Mind you, I IMed you hours & hours ago. o.O
isarealboy: That's true it was like 10 hours ago
XBathroomXLoverX: lolz.
XBathroomXLoverX: he's funky.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i like him
XBathroomXLoverX: have you IMed him?
XBathroomXLoverX: I'll give him your screen name.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: okay
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but wait i feel dumb
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: what if he asks how i got his screen name how do i explain that.
XBathroomXLoverX: !!!
XBathroomXLoverX: you'll love this.
XBathroomXLoverX:  sarealboy: What's your friends name
XBathroomXLoverX: Danielle.
isarealboy: Oh that's like my favorite name
XBathroomXLoverX: >:D
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: OMGG
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: omgmg
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: emily
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: omg
XBathroomXLoverX: XD
XBathroomXLoverX: IM him.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: im scareddd
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: dude you dont understand
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i like idolize him
XBathroomXLoverX: haha.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: hes a lyrical genuis
XBathroomXLoverX: he's pretty easy to talk to.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: to you
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: to me its liek idk what i can compare it to for you
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but its jsut not easyy!
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lol
XBathroomXLoverX: hahha.
XBathroomXLoverX: IM him.
XBathroomXLoverX: because I have to leave soon.
XBathroomXLoverX: XD
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but hat do i say
XBathroomXLoverX: Hi, my blood is standing still at this very moment in time. Because of you. Hi! :D
XBathroomXLoverX: He is flattered, btw.
XBathroomXLoverX: :-)
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: really what did he say?
XBathroomXLoverX: shaneisarealboy: I am flattered
shaneisarealboy: I'm just wondering where she got my screen name.  I'm never online
XBathroomXLoverX: How did you? o.O
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i dont wanna sayyy  because its stupid
XBathroomXLoverX: Some strange stalker way?
XBathroomXLoverX: Hahahaha/
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: id idnt think it was actually him
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but i know some girl he knows stephanie
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: and i seen she had pictures with him
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: and one day her profile had like a quote from him and jesse was IMing people and fucking with them and i mentione dit..so he took the screen name and added it and IMed him
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but he didnt respond
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: an d i've just had it there ever since
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but now i know its really him!
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but now im even more eeee!
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lol
XBathroomXLoverX: I'm telling him to IM you because I have to go.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lol did you tell him how i got his sn or do i have to espxlain it?
XBathroomXLoverX: XBathroomXLoverX: She just explained it to me, but it's semi awkward. You should IM her or she should IM you or something, because I have to run.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: okay i did.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: emily
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you just made my life full of sunshine
XBathroomXLoverX: Of course I do, which is why I don't like you back.
XBathroomXLoverX: lolz!
XBathroomXLoverX: I am off to teenboppers & vampires!
XBathroomXLoverX: Good night! :D
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: okay I LOVE YOU ANYWAY



jshd783yfuhwMEOW: hi lol
sarealboy: Hi :-)
sarealboy: Nice screen name
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: haha thanks, so it's really weird how i got your screen name, would you liek to hear the story?
sarealboy: Yes!
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: okay
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: so i used to talk to someone you know apparently, just on myspace when i had my old myspace, and i had her screen name on my buddy list for a while
sarealboy: Who was she
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: and one day my friend went on my screen name and decided to IM everyone on my buddy list and fuck with them, her being one of them and i noticed that she had pictures with you on her myspace, and like i guess in her profile this screen name was there one day, and i mentioned it to the kid, and he IMed you for you be one of the subjects too, but you didn't respond, i didn't really at all beleive it was your screen name so i made my friend IM you because im a really big fan >.<
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: stephanie
sarealboy: What's your myspace?
sarealboy: Cool.  I'm never really on here anyways
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: okay, well sorry if its kind of creepy lol
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=391411053
sarealboy: Cool
sarealboy: How's RI?
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: boringggg.
sarealboy: I'm sure its not that bad
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: no it's not thatt bad, but as of late it's just been pretty uneventful.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: which basically describes RI in general. XD
sarealboy: Wintertime coming always sucks... Gets dark early and crap
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: yeah i know, and freezing!
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: they've jsut destroyed almost the best part of RI, i'm not sure if you heard
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but they closed down the living room
eisarealboy: Is that a venue?  We only played rhode island twice ever I think
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: yes it is, and i think you played there once if i recall because i was mad i missed it =[
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but to all us Rhode Islanders thats like the best venue we had and what not
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: I guess the original owner died a few years ago and his friends kept the budgets for him for a while, but they couldnt do it anymore
isarealboy: I don't think so.  We played at Lupo's
sarealboy: Actually wait, we might have played there with senses fail.... Can't recall
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: yesss thats what it was
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: because everyone told me about it the day after
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: were you guys at the palldium this month?
sarealboy: Yeah, just a couple weeks ago
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: ughh
sarealboy: It was pretty sweet
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i heard about it a month ago and swore i was gonna go, and then i notcied today that it said november 8th
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: bu ti wnt last year
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: in fact i talked to you haha
sarealboy: Oh ya?
sarealboy: At palladium?  With devil wears prada?
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: yesyes
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: that was such an amazing showwww.
sarealboy: Glad you liked it.  Anyways, I'm going to get ready for bed.  Nice chatting with ya
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you too, goodnightt.

jshd783yfuhwMEOW: every single freckle on ypur face
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: has feelings for me

XBathroomXLoverX: are you guys sitting on the same chair, intimately close together, drunk, on fucking AIM?XBathroomXLoverX: lolz @ noobs!
XBathroomXLoverX: :D
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: im on her lap
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lmao;}
XBathroomXLoverX: :-)
XBathroomXLoverX: hahaha.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: with my legs on her shoulders
XBathroomXLoverX: ......
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lmo
XBathroomXLoverX: well.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: talking to you sweetheart
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: this makes us eel better about our day you know
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: actually personally i feel fine about my day, but this is just fun
XBathroomXLoverX: Why not. ;-)
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: yea agreed
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: think about it em
XBathroomXLoverX: o.o
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: my legs, her shoulders, thinking of you
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: LMFAO
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: omg im dying
XBathroomXLoverX: .........
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: because of me
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: sexy.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: hey em
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: how you doin beautiful
XBathroomXLoverX: I don't think I enjoy this. o.O
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: its tara and im back darling, i wish you were here
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you copuld join us
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: ;]
XBathroomXLoverX: Hahaha.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you laugh, im not kidding
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: come on over
XBathroomXLoverX: I'm okay, really. Keep the legs to a minimum. ;-)
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: ill pick you up
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: both phsycially and litterly
XBathroomXLoverX: Hahahaha.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: its all about how you want it em
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: come on
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you miss me
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i miss you
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lets make a night of it
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: METOO
XBathroomXLoverX: hahahahahaha.
XBathroomXLoverX: XD
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you know you want me back
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i swing
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: come onn
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: just say yes
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: ill give you time to think about it
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: ill be back
XBathroomXLoverX: o.o
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: and i'll give you time tillimat your house
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: ;]
XBathroomXLoverX: ... o.O
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: idk what shes talking about, but seriously
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: im not even drunk, baby
XBathroomXLoverX: You guys are so scary over AIM. It's awkward.
XBathroomXLoverX: hahahaha!
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: who says we're not scary in real life
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: want me to call?
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i can be scary if you want
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: sweet?
XBathroomXLoverX: Hahahaha.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: sensual?
XBathroomXLoverX: I'm okay. ;D
XBathroomXLoverX: hahahaha.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: they always say no
XBathroomXLoverX: Always.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but ring ring
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: your lucky
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: yolur phone is a bitch
XBathroomXLoverX: ;-)
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: thank god.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: what a buzz kill
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i know due
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: dude
XBathroomXLoverX: o.o
XBathroomXLoverX: hahaha.
XBathroomXLoverX: you guys are hilarious.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i was looking forward to that phohne callemily
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: gotr a house phone yet?
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: no no no danielle
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i repeat
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: buzz
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: kill
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: buzz
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: kill
XBathroomXLoverX: :DDD

jshd783yfuhwMEOW: im dyinbg
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i just chokedon alchplhal
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: hpo wowuld uyou feel oif i died em
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: would yoiu coem to my funeral?
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: shes fine. -t
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: im fine niow
XBathroomXLoverX: ahahaha!
XBathroomXLoverX: XDDD
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but i wasnt for a second 

jshd783yfuhwMEOW: but on a note of good friends
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: i miss lizzy
es tee eff uu: I miss you too :P
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: =O
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you SAID IT!
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: you must really be having withdrawls to have actually let that come out of your mouth
es tee eff uu: I wouldn't let it come out of my mouth, it came from my hands.
jshd783yfuhwMEOW: lmao